Paleo - Day 15, March 31, 2012

Last night at The Zen I had the mongolian grill. Something must have been in the sauces I chose. Sugar, gluten. Bad stuff. Within an hour I was feeling on edge. I also did two jello shots. I've always wanted to try those, so I decided why not. Well I never need to do that again. I'd rather have a straight shot of alcohol. Oh and I ate the 1/2-3/4 cup of white rice that came with it because I had put too much hot oil in the mix. Sheesh! By the time I got home I was achy all over and felt really sick to my stomach

I was sick to my stomach and felt horrible all night long. I had to cancel my workout session today, which I felt terrible about, but I was sick. Surely it couldn't have just been from my food, stomach flu? Probably not, probably just from what I ate. I started feeling better around noon. Though I felt like I was back to square one with cravings, I was craving things in the worst way.

Dylan called around 4 and asked if I wanted to go with Shannon to Splitz, he was playing a private part. We went, I should have eaten before we went, but I didn't. Big mistake. We sat out of the way, it turns out we sat near the food, guess what they were serving? Pizza. I swear there are times my food cravings can not be any less intense than what a drug addict feels towards drugs. My thoughts weren't rational. My fists were clenched. I should have left. Went for a walk or just flat out said I was sorry but that I had to leave. I didn't, instead I ate. It tasted so good. Why do I get so much pleasure from food, food that is bad for me. Five slices of pizza, hot spinach dip and chips, and a slice of cake. I felt horrible. Physically I was having hot flashes, I felt flush, I felt like my skin was too tight, edgy, my stomach blew up like a balloon. Mentally I feel absolutely terrible. I have let my son down. I haven't told him yet. He has been keeping his end of the bargain, 30 days. I blew it. I had told friends and family about eating Paleo and I blew it. I can't undo it, I can't change things. I can only try again.

Less than four hours after eating gluten and dairy I am congested. My body aches everywhere. I feel like a roly poly weeble wobble. I have to eat clean. There is no way I can do Crossfit while eating crap like I did last night. When I eat food like pizza and cake, my body is filled with pain and inflammation. I can barely move, I am physically weaker. I hope enough of it is out of my system before my next session, which hopefully will be Tuesday.