I am really really tired. Part of it I am sure is due to not sleeping well last night.
I want to weigh myself so badly, though the truth is if I were to weigh in and not have lost I am sure I would be eating burritos, enchiladas or mashed potatoes in no time flat. They are all things I am desperately craving right now.
It is only day 3 and I am so tired of eating meat. I am tired of chewing and chewing and chewing. Stir fry, hamburger/broccoli mixture, chicken salad...chew, chew, chew. I hope tomorrow is better. Today I found myself wondering why I am doing this. I have a hard time believing it will actually work, that I will become thinner and healthier.
I am hungry, my stomach is hungry, but I DON'T want to chew chew chew. I don't want to eat what I am allowed to eat. I find myself eating a few bites and pushing it away.
I guess things would be different if I felt good, but I don't I feel like Jabba the Hut. I feel hugh, slow, tired and achy.
30 days. I need to stay with it the 30 days. I can do this. I can do this. I will do this. I need sleep, sleep will make a difference.
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