I sent Dave an email this morning, I think I will post it here since it sums up how I am feeling at the moment.
Hi Dave,
I wanted to say I really enjoyed meeting you yesterday and getting to watch a workout. It was exciting and scary, and I want what they have. I want to be fit and strong. I want to work out knowing I gave 100%. I am used to being in pain, hurting all over from the excess weight, I want to be sore, knowing that it is something I earned from working hard, something that is helping my body. I know this will sound weird, but I want to sweat. Except for about a 2-3 week period in 2010 when I met with a trainer at regular gym (I quit because my knee flared up so badly from the workouts I could hardly walk, I think it was the treadmill and going up and down a step, steps hurt my knees at my current weight) I have never worked out hard enough to sweat, at least not in the last 20 years. I am really looking forward to getting started on Tuesday, of course I realize I may be singing another song once the workout begins. :)
I did a google search and think I found the person you referred to in San Diego. I watched two videos of a woman named Irene who has lost more than 100 lbs. It was pretty exciting to hear her talk about her progress doing the squats with lots of modifications and after about six months being able to do them with no modifications. If she did it, I should be able to do it too. At least that is what I keep telling myself. I try not to listen to the doubts. While watching the workout yesterday, I did have the thought pop into my head that I don't even remember when I have stood for 45 minutes let alone stand/workout. I was telling Sheila that right now, I even sit most of the time to do the dishes and cook. I am really embarrassed to admit that, but that is where I am at.
A little more about me, my heaviest weight was 451 lbs, I reached that a few years ago. For the most part I hover around 420 lbs, sometimes I drop down to 395 or so and sometimes back up to 445 or so. Other than a few months time, I have been over 400 lbs since my son was born 17 years ago. When I started eating Paleo 8 days ago I was 434 lbs. In 2006 I did Atkins and got down to 359 for one day, then I bounced around slowly going back up. I never could stay on Atkins for more than 2 months. Of course the 2 months on Atkins was the longest I've stayed on any program. The real litmus test is if I stay on Paleo longer than 60 days, at least in my mind when I pass the 60 day mark that is when I will probably let myself believe that "hey, I really am making a life change".
I am excited and looking forward to beginning, to changing. As the saying goes, doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results is insanity. I am ready to do something different.
I will give you a call tomorrow.
Lisa
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